Chapter One – Disposable
Get rid of her! My head screamed, I didn’t know how long Lauren had been there but I knew if she didn’t leave soon I might do something I regret.
“Lauren, umm can I ask you to leave please?”
“Really Cheyne? I personally don’t think you should be alone”
What does she know?
“I just need sometime to clear my head, I’ll be fine, I’ll come by your house later”
Just leave already! No one wants you here!
“If you need quiet, I can be quiet… you won’t even know I’m here”
How can she say that sincerely? Cheyne I’m beginning to get annoyed either get rid of her or I’ll make you kill her. No, I pushed back, were not doing that anymore!
“Lauren seriously back off, I just need to be alone, so go please”
“Let me help you” she pleaded
Oh fuck this I’m done waiting!
“GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE!”
Lauren almost looked as if she was going to cry, but I knew as well as Sienna that she was faking. Finally she was out of my house, I could breathe now, I looked at myself in the mirror. I hadn’t realized I looked so fragile, broken almost.
I hadn’t had an outburst like that in sometime now, I could see Lauren was attempting to help but with Sienna constantly screaming in my head, it gets hard.
“Hard? If you didn’t wait so damn long to get rid of her, I wouldn’t of had to take over and fix things yet again!” Sienna barked
“Fix things? You only make things worse Sienna, I wouldn’t be alone if you hadn’t ‘fixed’ things” I yelled
“ALONE? HOW DARE YOU CHEYNE! You make things so difficult, I don’t need you remember that, I could get rid of you just as we did your parents. You’re not strong enough to beat me, you’re weak and disposable. SO WATCH WHAT YOU SAY TO ME!
The disappointing thing was that Sienna was right, I couldn’t beat her not would I try. Sienna had been with me for as long as I could remember, she was me, well part of me; she was my anger, my fury and my strength. For 14 years of my life I had been just Cheyne Porter, but since the death of my parents Sienna had become more dormant, she screamed to get out, she’d take over sometimes. I’d wake up some days and not know where I was or how I got there. Sienna would let me watch sometimes, she made me watch us kill my parents.
Chapter 2 – All Downhill from Here
I couldn’t do anything to stop Sienna, well that’s what I’d convinced myself; Sienna knew my ever deep desire so she knew I wanted my parents gone, but in all reality every 16 year old says that at least once but they tried to take her away from me, they found out I’m schizophrenic and wanted to help. Get it under control they said, and at that time I trusted them.
“It’ll be okay honey, the doctors will help” Dad whispered as he kissed my forehead, I was walking into those straight jacket rooms, I was scared but determined to get better “What are you doing Cheyne? Were not crazy, without me who are you? If you stay here, I’ll be gone” Sienna spoke softly
“No, you’ll stay, they not going to take you away, I promise Sienna, we one, your part of me” I told her
Silently of course, didn’t need them knowing I was still talking to Sienna, I told them she was gone but they insisted on these sessions, I was happy Sienna was with me here, she’d been silent for so long I truly thought she was gone.
“Alright Cheyne, were going to fix this, I know you say that Sienna is gone but there could still be some reminisce of her within your mind, so if you’ll sit down, were going to perform the last test and get rid of Sienna for good” the doctor was saying, my vision was blurring “GET RID OF ME?” my head was pounding Sienna was screaming, my nose started to bleed, and then my ears, and I heard myself say “No, you can’t take her away” my words were slurred and the world was beginning to look completely gray, I could see doctors running around yelling things I didn’t understand, I could see my mom crying, She looked so sad.
After that my memory stops, it was the first time Sienna completely took over.
Sienna
I had enough; they thought they could get rid of me? I could laugh if I wasn’t so angry, I began screaming, I knew it would hurt Cheyne but I had to get out I had to protect us. I could feel Cheyne fading; these stupid doctors had no idea what they were dealing with.
“Finally” I sighed, I looked at my hands this was different, there was a doctor coming towards me “We need to sedate her! Jacob hold her” I hadn't realized anyone was behind me, but I knew he was there now, I turned grabbed this ‘Jacob’ by his neck, I looked deep into his eyes, he was maybe 20, so young and delicate, I held him there, examining him almost, then I broke his neck, he fell to the floor. One down one to go, the doctor that wanted to sedate me had grabbed some sort of object, it looked like a meat tenderizer, he began to swing at me, I avoided all of his sloppy attempts, I kicked him in the ribs, he fell to the floor, I continued to kick him, I heard his ribs break and a scream of agony. I then sat on him “ Che – yne stop” He was struggling to say “Don’t let her win” I laughed, I was getting bored he was so pathetic “your … so much better .. Cheyne please…” I rolled my eyes, punched him, I then reached down to his ear and whispered “My name is not Cheyne, it’s Sienna, and no she’s not better” I laughed again, stood up grabbed his weapon and beat his skull in, blood began staining the floor “I am”
I looked up and saw Cheyne’s parents staring back at me, aw Lexi looked so sad, Ryan looked in horror. I walked away from them, I’d kill them later, right now I needed to find my clothes and dispose of this hospital.
I stood in front of the hospital, looking down at my blood stained hands. I killed everyone in that hospital even the patients and felt no remorse, the only person I cared about more than myself was Cheyne and she was safe and that’s all that mattered, I lit a match and threw it at the hospital, I watched it begin to burn then turned and walked away.
Cheyne
I could see what Sienna had done but I wasn’t there, it was as if I was watching a movie “Sienna – what have you done?” I was scared, I saw blood all over her “No Cheyne, its not what I’ve done it’s what we’ve done and were not finished and your not going to enjoy what’s next, so you should probably fade back again” “What you mean Sienna, what more could we do, we ruined the lives of a countless number of people in there, I’m done and I want to come back now, Sienna please” “You can come back when we finish your parents” She wanted to kill my parents, I mean our parents, I began to scream “NO!” Sienna laughed “Yes, and I’m gonna let you watch”
I kept trying not to look but then I heard my mom scream and I had to look, Sienna had slit her neck open, there was so much blood, I wanted to puke. Sienna was then hit with something, can’t be sure what, all I knew was it felt like I’d been the one to get hit, things got blurry and I was gone.
I woke up in what I thought was the next day in clean clothes and in what looked like a hotel room. “Good morning Cheyne” Sienna said with a sigh “How’d we get here Sienna? Were going to get caught eventually, I think the cops are going to notice that a hospital burned down” Sienna laughed “This isn’t funny!” “Actually it is, it’s been six months since we killed your parents, I dealt with everything, we left Carolina and came to New York, you’ve been out for a while, but I was getting bored so I let you back in”
“What? Six months… theres no way” “Go back to sleep, it’ll make sense in time”
Get rid of her! My head screamed, I didn’t know how long Lauren had been there but I knew if she didn’t leave soon I might do something I regret.
“Lauren, umm can I ask you to leave please?”
“Really Cheyne? I personally don’t think you should be alone”
What does she know?
“I just need sometime to clear my head, I’ll be fine, I’ll come by your house later”
Just leave already! No one wants you here!
“If you need quiet, I can be quiet… you won’t even know I’m here”
How can she say that sincerely? Cheyne I’m beginning to get annoyed either get rid of her or I’ll make you kill her. No, I pushed back, were not doing that anymore!
“Lauren seriously back off, I just need to be alone, so go please”
“Let me help you” she pleaded
Oh fuck this I’m done waiting!
“GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE!”
Lauren almost looked as if she was going to cry, but I knew as well as Sienna that she was faking. Finally she was out of my house, I could breathe now, I looked at myself in the mirror. I hadn’t realized I looked so fragile, broken almost.
I hadn’t had an outburst like that in sometime now, I could see Lauren was attempting to help but with Sienna constantly screaming in my head, it gets hard.
“Hard? If you didn’t wait so damn long to get rid of her, I wouldn’t of had to take over and fix things yet again!” Sienna barked
“Fix things? You only make things worse Sienna, I wouldn’t be alone if you hadn’t ‘fixed’ things” I yelled
“ALONE? HOW DARE YOU CHEYNE! You make things so difficult, I don’t need you remember that, I could get rid of you just as we did your parents. You’re not strong enough to beat me, you’re weak and disposable. SO WATCH WHAT YOU SAY TO ME!
The disappointing thing was that Sienna was right, I couldn’t beat her not would I try. Sienna had been with me for as long as I could remember, she was me, well part of me; she was my anger, my fury and my strength. For 14 years of my life I had been just Cheyne Porter, but since the death of my parents Sienna had become more dormant, she screamed to get out, she’d take over sometimes. I’d wake up some days and not know where I was or how I got there. Sienna would let me watch sometimes, she made me watch us kill my parents.
Chapter 2 – All Downhill from Here
I couldn’t do anything to stop Sienna, well that’s what I’d convinced myself; Sienna knew my ever deep desire so she knew I wanted my parents gone, but in all reality every 16 year old says that at least once but they tried to take her away from me, they found out I’m schizophrenic and wanted to help. Get it under control they said, and at that time I trusted them.
“It’ll be okay honey, the doctors will help” Dad whispered as he kissed my forehead, I was walking into those straight jacket rooms, I was scared but determined to get better “What are you doing Cheyne? Were not crazy, without me who are you? If you stay here, I’ll be gone” Sienna spoke softly
“No, you’ll stay, they not going to take you away, I promise Sienna, we one, your part of me” I told her
Silently of course, didn’t need them knowing I was still talking to Sienna, I told them she was gone but they insisted on these sessions, I was happy Sienna was with me here, she’d been silent for so long I truly thought she was gone.
“Alright Cheyne, were going to fix this, I know you say that Sienna is gone but there could still be some reminisce of her within your mind, so if you’ll sit down, were going to perform the last test and get rid of Sienna for good” the doctor was saying, my vision was blurring “GET RID OF ME?” my head was pounding Sienna was screaming, my nose started to bleed, and then my ears, and I heard myself say “No, you can’t take her away” my words were slurred and the world was beginning to look completely gray, I could see doctors running around yelling things I didn’t understand, I could see my mom crying, She looked so sad.
After that my memory stops, it was the first time Sienna completely took over.
Sienna
I had enough; they thought they could get rid of me? I could laugh if I wasn’t so angry, I began screaming, I knew it would hurt Cheyne but I had to get out I had to protect us. I could feel Cheyne fading; these stupid doctors had no idea what they were dealing with.
“Finally” I sighed, I looked at my hands this was different, there was a doctor coming towards me “We need to sedate her! Jacob hold her” I hadn't realized anyone was behind me, but I knew he was there now, I turned grabbed this ‘Jacob’ by his neck, I looked deep into his eyes, he was maybe 20, so young and delicate, I held him there, examining him almost, then I broke his neck, he fell to the floor. One down one to go, the doctor that wanted to sedate me had grabbed some sort of object, it looked like a meat tenderizer, he began to swing at me, I avoided all of his sloppy attempts, I kicked him in the ribs, he fell to the floor, I continued to kick him, I heard his ribs break and a scream of agony. I then sat on him “ Che – yne stop” He was struggling to say “Don’t let her win” I laughed, I was getting bored he was so pathetic “your … so much better .. Cheyne please…” I rolled my eyes, punched him, I then reached down to his ear and whispered “My name is not Cheyne, it’s Sienna, and no she’s not better” I laughed again, stood up grabbed his weapon and beat his skull in, blood began staining the floor “I am”
I looked up and saw Cheyne’s parents staring back at me, aw Lexi looked so sad, Ryan looked in horror. I walked away from them, I’d kill them later, right now I needed to find my clothes and dispose of this hospital.
I stood in front of the hospital, looking down at my blood stained hands. I killed everyone in that hospital even the patients and felt no remorse, the only person I cared about more than myself was Cheyne and she was safe and that’s all that mattered, I lit a match and threw it at the hospital, I watched it begin to burn then turned and walked away.
Cheyne
I could see what Sienna had done but I wasn’t there, it was as if I was watching a movie “Sienna – what have you done?” I was scared, I saw blood all over her “No Cheyne, its not what I’ve done it’s what we’ve done and were not finished and your not going to enjoy what’s next, so you should probably fade back again” “What you mean Sienna, what more could we do, we ruined the lives of a countless number of people in there, I’m done and I want to come back now, Sienna please” “You can come back when we finish your parents” She wanted to kill my parents, I mean our parents, I began to scream “NO!” Sienna laughed “Yes, and I’m gonna let you watch”
I kept trying not to look but then I heard my mom scream and I had to look, Sienna had slit her neck open, there was so much blood, I wanted to puke. Sienna was then hit with something, can’t be sure what, all I knew was it felt like I’d been the one to get hit, things got blurry and I was gone.
I woke up in what I thought was the next day in clean clothes and in what looked like a hotel room. “Good morning Cheyne” Sienna said with a sigh “How’d we get here Sienna? Were going to get caught eventually, I think the cops are going to notice that a hospital burned down” Sienna laughed “This isn’t funny!” “Actually it is, it’s been six months since we killed your parents, I dealt with everything, we left Carolina and came to New York, you’ve been out for a while, but I was getting bored so I let you back in”
“What? Six months… theres no way” “Go back to sleep, it’ll make sense in time”
