Turn look, look out and see.
Do you see me? Cause I think I see you.
I've been some other place.
The wind that I chase, it all just leads back to you.
Oh how I'm still, so still it’s burdening, it's still outran.
I knew you when I was young, but where I am right now.
Is where I am.
Run to you, I will run, I will run
I will move, right on through all these things I have done.
And you'll take me back, I don't know why.
I wanna say I'll never do it again, but I can't
But I will try.
Turn and look, look out and see.
Do you see me? Cause I think I see you.
I’ve been some other place.
The wind that I chase it all just leads back to you.
Oh how I miss what you miss, but I will fall time and again.
And I will say, that I'm true to you, but I'm a cheat.
I don't understand.
So I'll run to you, I will run, I will run
I will move, right on through all these things I have done.
And you'll take me back, I don't know why.
I wanna say I'll never do it again, but I can't
I wanna say I'll never do it again, but I can't
I wanna say I'll never do it again, but I can't
But I will try.
The Rocket Summer “Run To You”
Prologue
He cast his deep blue eyes on me, it was a light look but still intense. I wasn’t ready to look up at him, I felt it, felt his gaze, waiting, waiting for an answer. What the hell I thought, I finally looked up at him, the end of his lips curved slightly. Not a smile, not yet
Me and Braeden had been friends for fourteen years now, so you’d figure I’d be used to those damn eyes but no they still shook me, such a light blue, that you could just lose yourself in. I stared a bit longer and smiled “Yes” I said, he smiled a devilish smile that turned into a grin that made those eyes shine so brightly. I loved him so much. We’d been staring at each other for what seemed like forever all for one word. Nothing else mattered now. One little crime wouldn’t change us. I’d rather risk my life than risk a life without him. He’s my bestfriend and all i’ll ever need. This is our summer, the summer where everything changed.
Chapter One- Smile in Your Sleep
I checked my watch. 1:42am. The plane was suppose to be here at midnight, where was it? I laughed at myself, as if it could be hiding somewhere. Wait what if something bad happened? What if it crashed and no one knew?
Oh stop it Adrian, I’m just over thinking it, I must be getting tired. I got up to go ask one of the attendants at the desk if they’d heard anything. The one lady who’s name I’d learned was Mary spoke before I had even made to the desk “Adrian, there’s a storm coming in, the pilots are circling, I’ll let you know if anything changes”
I’d been waiting here for a while now so sadly me and Mary were in a first name basis “Thanks Mary and sorry” she smiled and I returned to my seat. I felt defeated, I knew i shouldn’t but I’d been waiting a year for this, a year for him to come back and no matter how many conversations we had it was never the same as when I saw him. Him being Braeden. My bestfriend, we’ve been friends for what seemed like forever, and I think i’ve loved him forever too. I smiled at myself, I loved him, I loved Braeden Coteley .
I knew I shouldn’t be smiling but just thinking of him made me smile. And I loved that but also hated it. I liked to believe or at least convince myself that he doesn’t know I love him but I think he may know, I do try my best to make it strictly platonic however waiting at the airport for as long as I have isn’t too platonic but he didn’t need to know how long i’d been waiting and wait I would, I could.
So I waited, I didn’t get up again, I didn’t even move when I heard them announce that the plane had finally landed.
Braeden
“We’ll be landing soon, I hope you enjoyed your flight” a flight attendant whose name I remembered being Cassi whispered in my ear, and God how I enjoyed my flight, well I enjoyed her, I’d joined the mile high club everytime I flew but with this one would defiantly be making it on my list “I enjoyed a little bit more than the flight” I said as I caressed her thigh “Well Mr. “ – she paused and giggled a bit, I’d never given her my name, mostly because I knew i’d forget hers and she’d always remember mine, sadly the name Cassi was typical and not at all memeorable “Kane, Xander Kane”
“Fasten your seatbelt Mr. Kane, we will be landing soon” and with that she scurried off all the while blushing and thinking about my name, embedding it in her mind. You’re probably wondering how I know this. She’s on way her back to my seat “Excuse me, Xander? Do you have a round-trip?” Memorable. “Sadly babe, I do not” she sighed “Well thank you for making this the best flight Xander” I smirked and she laughed a bit “Bye Xander” “Goodbye Cassi” and with that she was off on her way again. And she will go home and call all her friends and talk about Xander Kane and how she thinks she loves him. If only everything were that easy. I enjoyed the mile high club because it was simple, there were no strings attached which made it easy, there was nothing to deal with after, no long talk, no information exchanged. It was like a one night stand without the guilt. That probably made me sound like a man whore, but it was apart of my job, flying to Toronto is part of my job. Moving to Ohio was apart of my job, so having sex in a plane makes my job worth while, makes it more exciting. Now I could just tell you what my job is but that would just finish this story to quickly, so i’ll start with a little bit about myself I’m Braeden, actually Xander Braeden Elijah Coteley Kane. Try having that as a signature. Alot of people know me as Braeden Coteley and I like Braeden, I like that side of me and sometimes I wish I could be Braeden all of the time but then I think about it, i’d miss Xander and Elijah too much. But to help you fully understand me, i’ll try and start from the beginning and hopefully you’ll all be able to understand at the end. You have to fully understand why i’ve done everything I’ve done. So let’s begin, it all starts with Adrian Rozenburg, my best friend, if someone like me could have one. I met Adrian when I was 7, two years before my training began . Adrian was the one person who didn’t make fun of me as a kid, she was my friend because she wanted to be, and I cared about her unconditionally because she trusted me and that was a lot. No one ever trusted me and that’s expected, so when I notice that Adrian trusts me with everything I’m both excited and disgusted. No one should trust me, but the lie I’ve orchestrated for Adrian throughout the years is one that anyone would trust.
So i’m sure at this point a lot of you are thinking if you care about her why not tell her the truth, well kids that part leads me to where we are today, meaning me flying back to Toronto. A year ago on this date, I received a card, this card was different than the others. This one was elegant, it was all black both the card and the envelope, it was also addressed to Elijah, which rarely happens, so after I read that, I knew it was time for me to work alongside someone. I opened the card carefully and enscribed in silver calligraphy was a name, a name that Elijah and Xander smiled at but i name I wish never existed:
Adrian Rozenburg
I dropped the card but reluctantly picked it back up, knowing that I couldn’t just throw this away, it’s never that easy. I’d never rejected an assignment but this I just couldn’t do
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“You are rejecting our choice? This shows weakness Xander, a weakness I am disgusted with, but understand. In a generous mood I guess, you’ll be moved to Ohio in three days”
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And so I moved to Ohio, and it was great, I could really let loose and not have to worry about Adrian anymore, I knew she was safe and that was what mattered. We still talked and emailed, kept in touch, mostly her choice but I couldn’t say no to her, so we kept our friendship going. But like always all good things must come to an end. Two weeks ago I received another black card:
Adrian Rozenburg
Take her or get rid of her
You have six months
And please make the right choice Braeden
And with that I was on a plane to Toronto. I got off the plane and went to baggage claim and dealt with all the fun customs bullshit “Welcome Home, Elijah Coteley” “It’s good to be home” if only that customs agent knew what he was letting back into his beloved country. If only.
I walked out of the gate and saw her. She’d been here for hours, she’d deny it but I could tell. She was sleeping, smiling. Adrian was the only girl I knew who smiled in her sleep. She was beautiful; I flinched at the thought and was immediately stricken with guilt. There were so many times I could’ve had Adrian, almost too many times but every time I wanted it and damn did I want it, I stopped. I stopped because I love her. And everything in my life has been easy and now I am going to do the hardest thing I will ever have to do.
I brushed her hair back, and her eyes slowly opened, revealing her brown-green eyes that could convince anyone to do anything. She looked at me and smiled. And I gave her my best fake smile because everything inside me just broke.
Do you see me? Cause I think I see you.
I've been some other place.
The wind that I chase, it all just leads back to you.
Oh how I'm still, so still it’s burdening, it's still outran.
I knew you when I was young, but where I am right now.
Is where I am.
Run to you, I will run, I will run
I will move, right on through all these things I have done.
And you'll take me back, I don't know why.
I wanna say I'll never do it again, but I can't
But I will try.
Turn and look, look out and see.
Do you see me? Cause I think I see you.
I’ve been some other place.
The wind that I chase it all just leads back to you.
Oh how I miss what you miss, but I will fall time and again.
And I will say, that I'm true to you, but I'm a cheat.
I don't understand.
So I'll run to you, I will run, I will run
I will move, right on through all these things I have done.
And you'll take me back, I don't know why.
I wanna say I'll never do it again, but I can't
I wanna say I'll never do it again, but I can't
I wanna say I'll never do it again, but I can't
But I will try.
The Rocket Summer “Run To You”
Prologue
He cast his deep blue eyes on me, it was a light look but still intense. I wasn’t ready to look up at him, I felt it, felt his gaze, waiting, waiting for an answer. What the hell I thought, I finally looked up at him, the end of his lips curved slightly. Not a smile, not yet
Me and Braeden had been friends for fourteen years now, so you’d figure I’d be used to those damn eyes but no they still shook me, such a light blue, that you could just lose yourself in. I stared a bit longer and smiled “Yes” I said, he smiled a devilish smile that turned into a grin that made those eyes shine so brightly. I loved him so much. We’d been staring at each other for what seemed like forever all for one word. Nothing else mattered now. One little crime wouldn’t change us. I’d rather risk my life than risk a life without him. He’s my bestfriend and all i’ll ever need. This is our summer, the summer where everything changed.
Chapter One- Smile in Your Sleep
I checked my watch. 1:42am. The plane was suppose to be here at midnight, where was it? I laughed at myself, as if it could be hiding somewhere. Wait what if something bad happened? What if it crashed and no one knew?
Oh stop it Adrian, I’m just over thinking it, I must be getting tired. I got up to go ask one of the attendants at the desk if they’d heard anything. The one lady who’s name I’d learned was Mary spoke before I had even made to the desk “Adrian, there’s a storm coming in, the pilots are circling, I’ll let you know if anything changes”
I’d been waiting here for a while now so sadly me and Mary were in a first name basis “Thanks Mary and sorry” she smiled and I returned to my seat. I felt defeated, I knew i shouldn’t but I’d been waiting a year for this, a year for him to come back and no matter how many conversations we had it was never the same as when I saw him. Him being Braeden. My bestfriend, we’ve been friends for what seemed like forever, and I think i’ve loved him forever too. I smiled at myself, I loved him, I loved Braeden Coteley .
I knew I shouldn’t be smiling but just thinking of him made me smile. And I loved that but also hated it. I liked to believe or at least convince myself that he doesn’t know I love him but I think he may know, I do try my best to make it strictly platonic however waiting at the airport for as long as I have isn’t too platonic but he didn’t need to know how long i’d been waiting and wait I would, I could.
So I waited, I didn’t get up again, I didn’t even move when I heard them announce that the plane had finally landed.
Braeden
“We’ll be landing soon, I hope you enjoyed your flight” a flight attendant whose name I remembered being Cassi whispered in my ear, and God how I enjoyed my flight, well I enjoyed her, I’d joined the mile high club everytime I flew but with this one would defiantly be making it on my list “I enjoyed a little bit more than the flight” I said as I caressed her thigh “Well Mr. “ – she paused and giggled a bit, I’d never given her my name, mostly because I knew i’d forget hers and she’d always remember mine, sadly the name Cassi was typical and not at all memeorable “Kane, Xander Kane”
“Fasten your seatbelt Mr. Kane, we will be landing soon” and with that she scurried off all the while blushing and thinking about my name, embedding it in her mind. You’re probably wondering how I know this. She’s on way her back to my seat “Excuse me, Xander? Do you have a round-trip?” Memorable. “Sadly babe, I do not” she sighed “Well thank you for making this the best flight Xander” I smirked and she laughed a bit “Bye Xander” “Goodbye Cassi” and with that she was off on her way again. And she will go home and call all her friends and talk about Xander Kane and how she thinks she loves him. If only everything were that easy. I enjoyed the mile high club because it was simple, there were no strings attached which made it easy, there was nothing to deal with after, no long talk, no information exchanged. It was like a one night stand without the guilt. That probably made me sound like a man whore, but it was apart of my job, flying to Toronto is part of my job. Moving to Ohio was apart of my job, so having sex in a plane makes my job worth while, makes it more exciting. Now I could just tell you what my job is but that would just finish this story to quickly, so i’ll start with a little bit about myself I’m Braeden, actually Xander Braeden Elijah Coteley Kane. Try having that as a signature. Alot of people know me as Braeden Coteley and I like Braeden, I like that side of me and sometimes I wish I could be Braeden all of the time but then I think about it, i’d miss Xander and Elijah too much. But to help you fully understand me, i’ll try and start from the beginning and hopefully you’ll all be able to understand at the end. You have to fully understand why i’ve done everything I’ve done. So let’s begin, it all starts with Adrian Rozenburg, my best friend, if someone like me could have one. I met Adrian when I was 7, two years before my training began . Adrian was the one person who didn’t make fun of me as a kid, she was my friend because she wanted to be, and I cared about her unconditionally because she trusted me and that was a lot. No one ever trusted me and that’s expected, so when I notice that Adrian trusts me with everything I’m both excited and disgusted. No one should trust me, but the lie I’ve orchestrated for Adrian throughout the years is one that anyone would trust.
So i’m sure at this point a lot of you are thinking if you care about her why not tell her the truth, well kids that part leads me to where we are today, meaning me flying back to Toronto. A year ago on this date, I received a card, this card was different than the others. This one was elegant, it was all black both the card and the envelope, it was also addressed to Elijah, which rarely happens, so after I read that, I knew it was time for me to work alongside someone. I opened the card carefully and enscribed in silver calligraphy was a name, a name that Elijah and Xander smiled at but i name I wish never existed:
Adrian Rozenburg
I dropped the card but reluctantly picked it back up, knowing that I couldn’t just throw this away, it’s never that easy. I’d never rejected an assignment but this I just couldn’t do
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“You are rejecting our choice? This shows weakness Xander, a weakness I am disgusted with, but understand. In a generous mood I guess, you’ll be moved to Ohio in three days”
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And so I moved to Ohio, and it was great, I could really let loose and not have to worry about Adrian anymore, I knew she was safe and that was what mattered. We still talked and emailed, kept in touch, mostly her choice but I couldn’t say no to her, so we kept our friendship going. But like always all good things must come to an end. Two weeks ago I received another black card:
Adrian Rozenburg
Take her or get rid of her
You have six months
And please make the right choice Braeden
And with that I was on a plane to Toronto. I got off the plane and went to baggage claim and dealt with all the fun customs bullshit “Welcome Home, Elijah Coteley” “It’s good to be home” if only that customs agent knew what he was letting back into his beloved country. If only.
I walked out of the gate and saw her. She’d been here for hours, she’d deny it but I could tell. She was sleeping, smiling. Adrian was the only girl I knew who smiled in her sleep. She was beautiful; I flinched at the thought and was immediately stricken with guilt. There were so many times I could’ve had Adrian, almost too many times but every time I wanted it and damn did I want it, I stopped. I stopped because I love her. And everything in my life has been easy and now I am going to do the hardest thing I will ever have to do.
I brushed her hair back, and her eyes slowly opened, revealing her brown-green eyes that could convince anyone to do anything. She looked at me and smiled. And I gave her my best fake smile because everything inside me just broke.
